Paul admits he wasn't just casually against Jesus; he felt a deep obligation to fight against Him. What drives such conviction, even when it's wrong?
Paul begins his defense by acknowledging his past, stating, 'I myself was convinced that I ought to do many things in opposing the name of Jesus of Nazareth.' This wasn't a casual dislike; it was a perceived duty.
The Power of a Misguided Conscience
- A Strong Sense of Obligation: The phrase 'I ought to do' (in Greek, dein) highlights a strong sense of moral or religious obligation Paul felt. He believed he was bound to act against Jesus and His followers. This wasn't about personal preference but what he saw as a divine mandate.
- Serving God Through Opposition: He thought he was serving God and his tradition by persecuting Christians. This is a stark reminder that a sincere conscience can lead people to do terrible things if it's not aligned with truth. Paul wasn't indifferent; he was actively, conscientiously hostile.
- 'The Name of Jesus': Referring to 'the name of Jesus' was a way of referring to Jesus Himself and His entire movement. Opposing the name meant opposing everything Jesus stood for.